The Nile on eBay New Life, No Instructions by Gail Caldwell
Originally published: Random House, 2014.
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The Pulitzer Prize winner and New York Times bestselling author of Let's Take the Long Way Home now gives us a stunning, exquisitely written memoir about a dramatic turning point in her life, which unexpectedly opened up a world of understanding, possibility, and connection. New Life, No Instructions is about the surprising way life can begin again, at any age.Look for special features inside. Join the Random House Reader's Circle for author chats and more."What do you do when the story changes in midlife? When a tale you have told yourself turns out to be a little untrue, just enough to throw the world off-kilter? It's like leaving the train at the wrong stop: You are still you, but in a new place, there by accident or grace, and you will need your wits about you to proceed."Any change that matters, or takes, begins as immeasurably small. Then it accumulates, moss on stone, and after a few thousand years of not interfering, you have a glen, or a waterfall, or a field of hope where sorrow used to be."I suppose all of us consider our loved ones extraordinary; that is one of the elixirs of attachment. But over the months of pain and disrepair of that winter, I felt something that made the grimness tolerable: I felt blessed by the tribe I was part of. Here I was, supposedly solo, and the real truth was that I had a force field of connection surrounding me."Most of all I told this story because I wanted to say something about hope and the absence of it, and how we keep going anyway. About second chances, and how they're sometimes buried amid the dross, even when you're poised for the downhill grade. The narrative can always turn out to be a different story from what you expected."Praise for New Life, No Instructions"Brimming with insights and wisdom . . . As far as I'm concerned, Caldwell can write about whatever she pleases. . . . Unabashed dispatches from lifelong single women are a fairly recent phenomenon. Caldwell has so much more to teach us."—Kate Bolick, The New York Times Book Review"Gail Caldwell offers the kind of wisdom and grace you'd wish a friend, sister, or mother might deliver. . . . Fans and new readers alike will find comfort in Caldwell's voice."—The Boston Globe"Quiet but powerful . . . an absorbing meditation on grief and rebirth in midlife."—More"Eloquent and uplifting . . . [a story] to inspire you."—Good Housekeeping"Graceful and reflective."—USA Today"[Caldwell] confronts, with pluck and fortitude, the hurdles that life throws her way."—Publishers Weekly"An uplifting journey . . . This book celebrates finding support where you least expect it."—Woman's Day"[A] beautifully written memoir."—Parade"[A] thoughtful, wide-eyed view of the world . . . [Caldwell] ably explores the shifts of our hearts."—Kirkus Reviews"Getting old, as they say, is not for sissies, and no one would call Pulitzer Prize–winner Caldwell a wimp. . . . There may not have been a road map for the life-changing trip [she] was about to take, but . . . Caldwell realized she had the power to endure."—Booklist
Author Biography
Gail Caldwell, the former chief book critic of The Boston Globe, received the Pulitzer Prize for distinguished criticism in 2001. She is the author of two previous books: A Strong West Wind and Let's Take the Long Way Home. A New York Times bestseller, Let's Take the Long Way Home was the winner of the New England Independent Booksellers Association award for nonfiction. Caldwell lives in Cambridge, Massachusetts.
Review
"Brimming with insights and wisdom . . . As far as I'm concerned, Caldwell can write about whatever she pleases. . . . Unabashed dispatches from lifelong single women are a fairly recent phenomenon. Caldwell has so much more to teach us."—Kate Bolick, The New York Times Book Review"Gail Caldwell offers the kind of wisdom and grace you'd wish a friend, sister, or mother might deliver. . . . Fans and new readers alike will find comfort in Caldwell's voice."—The Boston Globe"Quiet but powerful . . . an absorbing meditation on grief and rebirth in midlife."—More"Eloquent and uplifting . . . [a story] to inspire you."—Good Housekeeping"Graceful and reflective."—USA Today"[Caldwell] confronts, with pluck and fortitude, the hurdles that life throws her way."—Publishers Weekly"An uplifting journey . . . This book celebrates finding support where you least expect it."—Woman's Day"[A] beautifully written memoir."—Parade"[A] thoughtful, wide-eyed view of the world . . . [Caldwell] ably explores the shifts of our hearts."—Kirkus Reviews"Getting old, as they say, is not for sissies, and no one would call Pulitzer Prize–winner Caldwell a wimp. . . . There may not have been a road map for the life-changing trip [she] was about to take, but . . . Caldwell realized she had the power to endure."—Booklist"New Life, No Instructions shows us how a lot of little things . . . add up to something much more significant: a new life, embarked upon and embraced."—BookPage"New Life, No Instructions is beautifully written, lucid, and wise. We come of age again and again during the course of our lives, and need those who have traveled the path before us to shine a light, to lend a hand. Caldwell's story is moving and gripping. I found myself feeling that I had indeed been given a valuable set of instructions for how to proceed with eyes and heart wide open."—Dani Shapiro, author of Devotion and Slow Motion"In Gail Caldwell's New Life, No Instructions we see a Pultizer Prize winner once again go out and earn the title. It is a meditation on how seemingly faint winds can blow us wildly off course; on how spending time with a beloved animal can benefit our basic humanity; and on what it means to overcome, at middle age, a multitude of blows. It is lyrical and smart and triumphant and you won't read a more honest memoir in your life."—Darin Strauss, author of Chang and Eng and Half a Life
Review Quote
"Brimming with insights and wisdom . . . As far as I'm concerned, Caldwell can write about whatever she pleases. . . . Unabashed dispatches from lifelong single women are a fairly recent phenomenon. Caldwell has so much more to teach us." --Kate Bolick, The New York Times Book Review "Gail Caldwell offers the kind of wisdom and grace you'd wish a friend, sister, or mother might deliver. . . . Fans and new readers alike will find comfort in Caldwell's voice." -- The Boston Globe
Description for Reading Group Guide
Five Things I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self byGail Caldwell Originally published on Oprah.com 1. Your father was saying something that you couldn't hear. My dad was a tough, sometimes domineering Texas patriarch, and his idea of protecting his two adolescent daughters was to scare hell out of the boys in the 'hood. Granted, it was the Texas Panhandle in the 1950s: When a kid came to my or my sister's window late at night, Wild Bill would do a patrol around the block with an unloaded rifle on his shoulder. Why couldn't he just tell us to watch our backs, or say how much he loved us? Now I know that he was telling us, but too often the greatest generation translated love into laconic shows of strength. I wish he could have said, "You are the most precious cargo in the world and I will do anything to keep you safe," which might have helped me learn to say it to myself. 2. Live inside your body. You have muscles and brain cells that are poised for amazing possibilities--childbirth and mountain climbing and dancing until 3 a.m. You can learn calculus or walk across half of Spain and your body and brain will barely flinch. Then you can sleep it off and start again. You will be able to do this for many, many years, particularly if you forgo stupid drugs and too much booze and seven helpings of cheesecake and walking in front of speeding vehicles, or, for that matter, getting into them. 3. Walk tall, even--especially--when you are afraid, or cowed, or insecure. If you assume you are too good to be taken advantage of, the bullies of the world will usually believe you, and move on. This skill involves daily practice, like sports or meditation, and, as my gun-toting, poker-playing dad would say, a little bluff at the right time. I had a creepy guy twice my size acting inappropriately in an airplane aisle recently--he reached his hand around my waist--and without thinking, I looked him in the eye, moved toward him with my hand up, and said, "Sir, you're going to need to step back, now." I think I've been watching too much Matthew McConaughey in True Detective . But hey, the man got out of my way, fast. 4. Everything--I mean everything--matters. The friend's kid brother you were nice to when no one else was; the parking place you got into a screaming match over; the bearable, or awful, breakup you had. What matters is not the parking place, but the way you react: the kindness you display, and the mercy and the poise to be your own best self when you can. Everything matters because it morphs into this giant thing called history, or experience, and eventually life itself. Even the murderous Hound in Game of Thrones tells Arya, "A man's got to have a code." Find yours and live by it. 5. Remember the gulping-air surprise of being alive. Love, color, music, the beauty of the planet--all these things will serve you later, decades later, when you are walking down a street in St. Louis, or a beach on Cape Cod, and you hear a song that sends you spinning. You hear "Night-swimming" and want to weep because it takes you back to Point Reyes in California, or a sunset over Mount Bonnell in Texas. Your memory is the motherboard. Feed it the experience and it will always give it back. P.S. You will note that I have left out much counsel about the bad times in life. That's because they will always be there, the worry and sorrow and little hells that we can do nothing about. No prep book for those. Do the good stuff, see above, and it will cushion the rest.
Discussion Question for Reading Group Guide
1. New Life, No Instructions resonates with the theme of life beginning anew, with the chance to start over, at no matter what age. What was a moment in your life when you were able to start fresh? What was the best part of that moment? The most difficult? 2. As Caldwell watches Tula in the backyard, she writes, "We love what we love in spite of ourselves, toward something larger and more generous than the velvet prison of self." Has there ever been a time when you've grown to love something or someone through difficulty? Did the hard times make your relationship stronger? Did you feel that you'd grown, as a person, because of it? 3. "We attach ourselves to our familiar miseries, an easier act sometimes than striking out for the territory." How did Caldwell's attachment to her old leg, and her old self, create issues for her in the healing process? Have there ever been times when you've been unable to let go of something that was painful to you? 4. Throughout the book, Tula is the catalyst Caldwell needs to keep pushing forward, to keep improving her life. Think about the people or animals in your own life who give you inspiration and purpose. When did you feel most grateful to them? 5. Caldwell describes her relationship with S. and the many problems it created. In the midst of it, though, she discusses her mother and writes, "She stopped my free fall. The ledge of my mother, as I dropped through space." Has there ever been a time when your own mother helped you get through a major turning point in your life? Did you ever feel that she knew you better than you knew yourself? 6. Caldwell tells us that she doesn't believe much in miracles--"Too flashy, too little empirical evidence that the glow lasts. Instead I'll take the slower route: an apple a day, a thousand leg lifts." Think about a time in your life when you've worked diligently for something. Was the outcome worth more than gains that came easily? 7. One of the major themes of the book is the unconventional family that Caldwell creates with her neighbors: "I felt blessed by the tribe I was part of.... Here I was, supposedly solo, and the real truth was that I had a force field of connection surrounding me." Who are some of the people who belong in your own unconventional family? Have there been times when they were able to help you when no one else could? 8. Caldwell also realizes that "solitude itself makes you stretch your heart--the usual buffers of spouse and children are missing, so you reach toward the next circle of intimacy." Has there ever been a time when you've lived on your own, away from family and friends? If so, who were the first people to reach out to you? Who were the ones you connected with the most? 9. Caldwell describes her journey as a reigniting of hope: "I wanted to say something about hope and the absence of it, and how we keep going anyway." When have you felt the most hopeless? Who helped reignite the flame of hope for you? 10. Caldwell describes her journey as a reigniting of hope: "I wanted to say something about hope and the absence of it, and how we keep going anyway." When have you felt the most hopeless? Who helped reignite the flame of hope for you?
Excerpt from Book
9781400069545 excerpt Caldwell / NEW LIFE, NO INSTRUCTIONS 1. Cambridge 2011 My first tip-off that the world had shifted was that the dogs looked lower to the ground. I dismissed the perception as a visual misread: Because I was on crutches and couldn''t bend down to touch them, of course they would seem farther away. Then a friend came to visit, a striking woman whom I''d always considered tall. She was standing across the living room and I was smiling, happy to have her there, and I thought, Tink is small! And I never realized it before. The fact is that Tink is about my size, but until that day I had looked up to her in more ways than one. I was just home from five days at New England Baptist Hospital, where the chief of joint reconstruction had built me a new hip and lengthened my right leg by five-eighths of an inch. The measurement sounds deceptively slight, but then pi, unexplained, doesn''t mean much, either. What the extended hip bought me was about two inches of additional height, because I was no longer bending forward in pain. It gave my leg something immeasurable: an ability to reach the ground, and the chance and anatomical equipment to walk right for the first time in my life. Almost as dramatic, at least in the beginning, was the re- orientation of my physical self in space. My perspective had been jolted to the point that trees and cars and other markers of street life felt closer to me, within reach in a way they hadn''t before. I could sense the effort involved in making these neural adjustments: In a simple movement like a step forward, particularly outside, there would be a lurch of visual confusion, then acceptance. It happened quickly and brilliantly, and my comprehending it changed everything: What had seemed to be mere dizziness was in fact the brain''s ballet. These were transient phenomena, the brain being a nimble choreographer of time and space. Within a few weeks I would be accustomed to the additional height and leg length; our bodies, perfect feats of design, respond to what is in front of them, usually without even bothering to let us know. But the dance I found myself doing with the physical world in the first few days and weeks after surgery signaled something larger, more long-lasting, that I would have to learn and relearn in the following year: the notion that life has an agency, some will and forward motion, greater than one''s own wish or intention. Dylan Thomas called it the force that through the green fuse drives the flower. The idea that the whole blessed shebang doesn''t have to be a free fall after all. I caught polio when I was six months old, in 1951, during one of the last years of the U.S. epidemic, before the vaccines. The virus, which destroys neurons, can lead to full or partial permanent paralysis; it affected the muscles in my right leg, and I didn''t walk until I was past the age of two. Still, the mark on my family''s door was relatively faint: no March of Dimes crutches or iron lung, just a faltering leg that often went unnoticed. The fact of the disease--important but hardly central--had long been incorporated into my shorthand self-description: writer, grew up in Texas, slight limp from polio. Part of the story I''d told myself all my life was that polio had made me a fighter--that I was hell-bent on being strong because of it--and that much was still true. But in the past few years, within the joys and demands of raising a young dog, I had begun to experience pain and lameness I''d never known before. The mystery of this decline cast a shroud of defeat over what I feared lay ahead. It seemed that the aftereffects of the disease had reemerged, ghostly and conniving, like a stalker who''d never left town. And then: A standard X-ray, ordered probably fifteen years after it was called for, revealed that the scaffolding of my hip was a junkyard of bone. However compromised my leg had been by polio, muscles can''t work without a structure to hold them up. That I had been walking around at all, I was told, was astounding--and a lot of my recent decline could be addressed by one of the most common surgeries in modern medicine. The rest--the retraining and possible strengthening of a rebuilt leg--would be up to me. What do you do when the story changes in midlife? When a tale you have told yourself turns out to be a little untrue, just enough to throw the world off-kilter? It''s like leaving the train at the wrong stop: You are still you, but in a new place, there by accident or grace, and you will need your wits about you to proceed. The revelation that there was a medical solution before me--a high-tech fix to pain and infirmity that by now seemed endemic and existential--shifted the angle of my vision in some essential way. It opened up the future and tinted the past, in the way that the unexpected can always disarm the reach of yesterday. Despite the mind-over-matter stoicism of Western thought, the mind cannot grasp the concept of wellness until the body announces it. The idea that I would somehow and someday be able to walk better--to walk without pain or urgent concentration--was a foreign notion and required a leap of faith. I didn''t really believe it until months after surgery, when I saw my right foot climb a stair without asking my brain for permission first. I was being offered a new chapter to an old story, and the beginning of something else altogether. *** This rearranging of a life started out, too, as a love story-- a human-canine one, filled with the usual pratfalls and dropped cues of romance. My four-legged Boswell was a young Samoyed named Tula, a beautiful, irascible sled dog with an intrepid heart and the strength of a tractor. Trying to keep up with her--trying to be a middle-aged athlete in a failing body--was what first revealed to me the sort of trouble I was in. As she hurled herself through life with me stumbling along behind, she became my divining rod, herding me toward places I could not have gone alone. She stood by when I fell and got up and tried again; accordingly, I tried to pay attention to the world as she saw it. Dogs have a present-tense alacrity that makes short shrift of yesterday''s bad news. They are hard-wired to charge forth, to expect good outcomes, and that viewpoint can shape the future as much as it anticipates it. I don''t believe I''d have staggered into this glen of insight and physical change without her. "Your body has been through a major trauma," a resident told me when I called the hospital at midnight, with a 100-degree fever and a racing heart. "It was a carefully controlled trauma, but it''s still a trauma." It was my first night home, several days after surgery, and I''d been told to report any signs of fever or shortness of breath. The surgical fellow who answered my call sounded sleepy but interested. I said I''d been released from the hospital that afternoon and gave him all my vital stats--blood pressure, hematocrit, oxygen levels, history of transfusions. "You''re lucid and articulate," he said. "I know that doesn''t matter much to you right now, but it matters greatly to me." I realized that he meant I wasn''t raging with fever or non compos mentis from infection. "Your symptoms are distressing to you but not dangerous," he said. "They''re all completely within the realm of normal." "In other words," I said, "a bulldozer just ran over me, but the guy driving knew what he was doing?" "Exactly!" he said, and we both laughed, and both, or so I assumed, went back to sleep. Days of inpatient physical therapy had taught me how to maneuver the crutches I would be on for the next six weeks. My house was full of friends and food and as prepped as a military canteen. But when I first got inside the door, all I could see was the obstacle course that lay before me: all those stairs and chairs and corners and narrow paths. I had been reduced to the most elemental part of being human: living utterly in the physical world. Even through the blur of painkillers, I was not much more than a set of sensate responses to pain--pain being a self-contained universe, not so much awful as it was all-consuming. For what seems like forever but was probably a week or less, I lived only according to its dictates. *** "Do people ever regret having this surgery?" I was pleasant enough when I asked this question of my physical therapist, who came to my house the next morning. But I was dead serious. I felt mauled. Worse, I was afraid I had allowed myself to be mauled--that something horrid and ineradicable had transpired from which I would never recover. The physical therapist was chipper and gracious and she didn''t hesitate to answer. "Oh yes!" she said, and I flinched. Then she said, "Most of them are where you are right now. At the end of the tunnel, they say it changed their life." "How long is the tunnel?" I asked. "About six months," she said. "And how long is the horrible part?" I said. This time she paused. "About four weeks." OK, I thought. I can do four weeks of horrible, to change a life. My history with polio and my parents'' reaction to it--my mother''s early fortitude, my father''s rough-bluster loyalty--are what first tempted me to gather this narrative, to splice past into present and try to make sense of it all. Polio is a far greater medical odyssey than my experience can even hint at; its individual stories are in danger of being forgotten as a piece of the social tapestry, because its firsthand witnesses, at least in the developed West, are middle-aged or older. Most of all I told this story because I wanted to say s
Details ISBN0812981871 Author Gail Caldwell Short Title NEW LIFE NO INSTRUCTIONS Pages 192 Language English ISBN-10 0812981871 ISBN-13 9780812981872 Media Book Format Paperback DEWEY B Birth 1951 Year 2015 Publication Date 2015-02-03 Imprint Random House Trade Paperbacks Subtitle A Memoir Country of Publication United States AU Release Date 2015-02-03 NZ Release Date 2015-02-03 US Release Date 2015-02-03 UK Release Date 2015-02-03 Place of Publication New York Publisher Random House USA Inc Audience General We've got this
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